Sunday was Ashley’s last dance dress rehearsal. This was not the first of her lasts, but dance will be filled with many BIG lasts.
The pre-dress rehearsal started the same way it has started since she began competing, even at age eighteen.
“ Wake up, Ashley! It is time to get ready.”
5 minutes later. “Get out of bed, Ashley!”
5 minutes after that. “Get out of bed! You will be late!”
Finally, her head and shoulders lifted, and she literally rolled out of bed.
As she got ready, I did my usual:
Served her breakfast in the bathroom
Straightened her poofy hair out as she applied her make-up
Threw her makeup and hair supplies in her Dream Duffel
Rolled the monster bag out and packed her car (this time still in my pajamas)
And then...she left...by herself. Without me! I felt pretty lost. I have always gone with her, helped her, watched her. I felt like I was losing my grip.
Questions went through my head: Is she ready? Did she forget something? Does she need me? The reality of the last question hit me pretty hard. No, she did not.
I set up my computer and logged in to Zoom. I was feeling pretty sorry for myself. Zoom was laggy. It’s impersonal. It did not seem real. At the end of the dances, the girls stood listening to their critiques, and the masks going in and out as they tried to catch their breath were yet another reminder of how different things still are.
So many feelings rolled through my heart, but the ones I chose to let sit there were only positive feelings. The fact was - she was DANCING! I was so thankful for her teachers who worked so hard so that the dancers could do what they love. I DO believe that this COVID year will be one that we will never forget.
A student recently asked me why on Earth Zoom was on my February love list. There are many reasons, but this day tops them all. Zoom was my window to watch my girl dance her last dress rehearsal. Without if I would have been blind. I would have missed the very thing that fills my heart with light and love.
I am excited to be participating in the Two Writing Teachers March Slice of Life Challenge!